Baby Shower! - Day In The Life

Okay, here goes, my first 'Day In The Life' blog post. My nephew and his partner are expecting their first baby together and this past Sunday we all came together to celebrate at a surprise baby shower planned by my sister, who by the way did an amazing job. I'm not going to talk too much about everyone who was there as they may not want to be mentioned, so I'll be focusing more on just my day. I thought I'd pick this day to write about because not only was it a special, family day to look back on but it was also one of those days where my anxiety took control and I did say that I was going to be 100% honest with you guys about my anxiety journey.

As usual with my life, the day didn't exactly go to plan. My sister had asked me to make some cupcakes for the buffet and of course, I said yes. However, the second batch turned out an absolute mess because I tired to make things a bit quicker by using a packet mix and then half of the good batch got ruined because the piping bag split! So I got up super early on the morning of the baby shower and made another batch from scratch. Everything was then going fine until it come to decorating them, this was after the photos below, when I realized I now didn't have icing or a piping bag anymore as I had bought a reusable one this time. So off I went to my local B&M for another one. My niece and her friend arrived while I was getting myself ready and she helped me to decorate them...only for the second piping bag to burst! So they ended up looking pretty shabby but they were passable and they still tasted good so off we went.

I was well aware that it was going to be a difficult day for me as there would be a lot of people there that I didn't know but I didn't expect it to be quite as bad as what it was. I put the hamper I had made up with the rest of the gifts and basically spent the rest of my time there alone in the corner feeling like I was dying. I managed to keep it marginally under control right up until my sister came over to check on me. Now, we may not see each other as often as we'd like but my sister know me VERY well and she's my big sister, so she always has my back. We talked for a minute and she told me if I needed to go home she totally understood so, I stayed as long as I could then I said goodbye to her and one of my nieces and left. Bad manners, I know. I didn't even say bye to my nephews partner and it was her baby shower! I was mortified when I got home and calmed down a little bit, so I sent her a quick post on Facebook apologizing for leaving early.

Looking back on it I'm massively annoyed at myself for letting my anxiety take control and lose myself like that. My Grandma has said a million times since that I should of been proud not annoyed because go back even just a few months and I never would of been able to go so just being there was an accomplishment but if you have anxiety then you'll know what I'm talking about when I say that it never really feels like that from where I'm standing. All I can hope is that next time I do better! I ended the day with food, a long soak in the bath and an early night because the whole thing had given me a horrible migraine and, being a massive introvert, just being around people all day is enough to wear me out.

It sounds silly all written down like that but, yeah...that's what happens when I'm around people I guess. My next Day In The Life will be when I go to Edinburgh so watch out for that one, I've got a feeling there will be another anxiety attack at some point while I'm there but fingers crossed I can avoid it!

XOXO

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